My Beliefs

By Deborah S. Weiler

Please skip this if you have strong beliefs of your own. I only share some of what I have come to believe for those who may have none yet. It may give them a place to start. It is not to try to change your beliefs.

This are only my tiny beginnings at understanding One too big too comprehend. Don't blame the mom or church.

I don't ask you to change what you feel is right. That is always between you and God. I don't think anyway of believing in God is wrong.

I believe all of us are being drawn to Him in His own time and by our own path. He will teach you what you need to know to believe for yourself.

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I use the words He, Him, God, and Creator. They all mean the same thing to me. I believe what we call God, the Creator, is the completely melded male and female essence of two beings. I believe their powerful, perfect love created all that we know as life or alive here.

We can't have a son without a mother. There has to be a female aspect to the Creator. I sometimes need to take my cares and worries as a woman to a woman. How do you talk to Jesus about menopause, hormone swings or breast cancer?

You can still have a trinity, they are perfectly "One" in their love. I believe there is a Goddess aspect of God in the Father part of the "Father, Son, Holy Ghost.

God and Goddess are one. Their joining created a Divine "US", the invisible Spirit of their love. The Son their love created is the other part in my word, "God". Parents, Holy Spirit of their love and their beloved Child is how I like to think it.

I believe the Holy Spirit is the "US" of a divine and perfect union. It is invisible but real. Every true love yearns to be expressed in creating, as we are made. Their love, so perfect and large, did the same thing. Not just the Child, but all that is, came from their love.

A male and female together we call a pair. I call these pairs an "Us". When you join in love with a partner the "us" of you is invisible but real. You say, "We are going to...., not 'I' or 'me' - but we. You have an invisible "us" that is your love for each other. It's like a human copy of their divine and Holy Spirit.

If you have ever been really paired then you know it is a truth. There is something that is not just each of you, but the two of you loving together. It is something more than each of you alone. Somehow 1+1 equals more than two, and less. The two of you become one thing. You each treasure and protect the "US" between you. It is invisible but you will do nothing to hurt it if your love is real.

Each friend you know and love evokes a part of you that no one else does. With you they are free to be that part of them that you touch. This also creates an "us". It's a part of you that you can only express with that person and no other.

When we lose our friends and family we lose the person here that we can be that part of our selves with. It leaves us missing what we shared together here. It is a sundering of the "us" that grieves our hearts.

That one precious friend is still going to be in our lives when we change, as they have done, and join them again, in time. Love does not die, life does not end with the stopping of a body. Life is the path back to them, not death. It's how I live and love on, knowing where the road ends is with all those I love, together again.

I believe we are made in God's image. I believe we are created by that love to be loving companions to each other and to God. I believe we are only here to create more love, give love and be loved.

I believe Their spirit, what the book calls the Holy Ghost, communicates personally with us here. The touch is awe inspiring and a little spooky. It can seem scary because it is so outside our experience. We can not know all of God in these bodies, they are too weak and He is too huge in the Power of Love that is Him.

The truth of the contact can't be denied. You will know who is speaking to you. The touch is "UN-human", powerful and loving. He will never hurt you in His love of you, but it can "scare the bejezus out of your ego", as a man I know said once. I do not believe you can mistake the Spirit's touch.

I believe in Jesus, the son of this Divine Love. I believe his making was totally of God, the Father and Mother and their spirit, the US of them, together as one and in Love. They created him, the child that is the visible expression of their love. He is of them as we are of our parents and He is one with them in their Love.

I believe that Jesus is/was the visible manifestation of the love between those two powerful beings that, as one, are God.

Each child is born of a pair. I believe you are a visible and real result of love. It isn't always what we think of as love that creates a child between a man and a woman. It is always God's love that gives it life. You were all created by His love whatever the circumstances of your birth.

You may be called an accident or a bastard here. In the eyes of the only one that can create and power life you are loved. That is why he made you. He loved doing it and He loves you as you are. I believe that each bit of life here is a visible manifestation of that love.

I have a small box my father made of walnut wood to hold his guitar picks. He gave it to me and I treasure it. It is something his hands shaped and used that I can touch when I think of him. It is not much to look at. It is precious to me as a gift my father gave me. We loved each other, not rightly all the time, but that box was a sign of love between us. I don't mind leaving it behind for others when I go, but I keep it with me here.

I love the love I see in that box. His love of working with wood. His love of having his work admired. His love of me in offering it. My love for him in loving to have it as a gift from him.

My love for that box is out of proportion to what it might look like to someone looking at it that does not know what it is. To them it's just a little, brown box. To me it is something that shows the love between me and my father. I need that in my life.

My mother's love hangs in my kitchen. It looks like a red and white checked curtain. It will always be the color of my kitchens and that curtain comforts me. My mom loved me enough to make just the way I wanted it to be and then added a bit of lace to make it the way she thought it should be. It adds a little fancy to the plain. That is a talent of hers. It was a gift of her time and skill and done for love of me. I will not part with it willingly. I love that piece of material as a gift my mother gave me. It's just a curtain if you don't know of the love I see in it.

I believe that God gave all He made to his son, as we leave what we have to our children. I believe Jesus loves all that God gave him the way I love my box and my curtain. He loves the gift that was to Him from his parents. He loves us. His love is all out of proportion to what we are.

When you look at yourself and see what He was given you wonder how He could love it at all. We don't feel wonderful and special. He loves us just as we were made. He sees the love in us as we are supposed to be but loves us as we are, even the simple and plain.

I think that, once we had the knowledge of good and evil, the power to chose, God still loved us. He didn't send us from the garden to hurt us but to protect us. I think we were barred from the Garden to keep us from the Tree of Life.

We are too small to understand Divine Truth as humans with bodies. We are too weak to choose always correctly. To live forever like this with only our own judgment of life, choosing as we do, would be eternal punishment. I believe death was to keep us from living forever in the hurt and pain we create for ourselves. Death was a merciful gift from God.

I believe Jesus saw the grief in us that was caused when death separated us from those we loved. We could not see the gift in death God meant it to be. It hurt us. Our pain at death hurt Him because He loved us. He could see it was supposed to keep us from living in misery forever. He saw we could not see it that way. We hurt, that hurt His heart. He wanted to take that hurt from us because He cared.

I believe Jesus created the way to remove the pain from us. He asked His Father for the gift of eternal life, the One Tree left in the garden that was forbidden to us. It was given to Him to give to us. Then he asked for a way that we could be what we were made to be, not left as what we did to each other and ourselves by our lives here. He could heal our spirits and remove the death we all feared and hated.

We were created perfect but by our imperfect choices we lost that and became less than we were made to be. He could see the joy and love and peace we had inside that was buried under the mess we made of ourselves lives walking without God. He saw how we hurt each other and ourselves and that hurt His heart. He went to His Parents for us.

They granted the power to Jesus to restore us. I know it was given in love for us, but I bet God asked Him if he was sure, "Son, are you sure you want to do this? Will you really go and tell them, in person, that they will die and be parted no more? This is what will happen to you. Can you bear all this just so they can be together in love forever with us again?"

I believe Jesus said something like, "I have to Father, I love them. I can't stand to see their pain. Will you let me lift it from them? Let me show them they can be back with us again as perfectly as you made them."

In His love and grace He came and removed death from us, the gift we couldn't understand. Then he gave us Grace for all we have ever done to ourselves or one another. If we believe His words of truth then we know we will live forever. We can walk in peace, love and contentment here. We will not die carrying with us only pain, resentment and hate.

He came to tell us we will not die, we were free to come back to our walk with God. He chose to come here, live and love with us, be killed, all as it was written. He devoted His life to loving, healing and teaching what He knew of God. He knew what was going to happen.

The act I see as the largest show of the love He has for us was when He gave up eternity for another forty days. He came back here when He could have stayed in that perfect love with God. He came back from that place of love just to show us His truth. He did not just say the words, he showed us we would live. He show us that he was not dead. We will live for ever. The Creator loves us.

The disciples didn't have to "believe" he lived after dying, he came back and SHOWED them. We, who did not see it with our own eyes, have to believe what they have written. It is so easy to say, "Oh, that old story! It's a myth. That couldn't really happen."

I have to say it happened to me. It is real. I did not die though I was dead. Any test you want I will take. It is a truth for me. He lives. We live. My mate lives. My father lives. All I have ever loved are alive. Your loved ones are alive and loving still.

As I came back to God I found my trust in Him again. I can't understand where He leads me, but I know I am safe following Him home.

I believe so much here that we feel is "life or death" and must be dealt with by us is not important there. The relief I felt at the release from the duties and responsibilities I thought were mine was from learning a truth. It's not my job, it's His, to make life come out right in the end. I don't have to do it, He will. I wish I could remember it better here. I keep trying to do things and then find out they have already been done by Him. I just had to notice that it was so and accept it the way it was.

I can not say who it was I met. Some will say an angel, Jesus or God. I received no name I remember. I believe I meet an aspect of the Creator, the human like spirit of Him. I believe He has to be so large, to stand outside of all creation and create it, that He had to have a part that was small enough for us to see and made one.

I have come to believe it was the spirit of Jesus. His words in the book say he will meet us there. "There" is where I was trying to get. Why, in His love, I was sent back, I have no answer for yet.

I believe our spirits have eyes, ears, lips, voices, feet, hands, and memories. They also have a mind and heart though they are not like the ones we know in these bodies. What ever those parts may appear like they do the same things as the ones we have.

Your spirit sees, hears, feels joy, feels yearning, it travels and likely does much more. It also thinks, remembers, loves, has a way to communicates and learn. I had no body and did all these things. Others tell the same in their experiences.

I saw things I knew to be spirits of people, after I saw His view of me. I did not get to go and see who they were. They were beautiful and loving, too, but I was there to learn of Him.

I will be back to meet with the others later. I believe I will have time enough to meet and know everyone who ever was or will be that I ever want to meet or didn't have enough time to love while I was here. Wait up for me, Red Skelton, Janis and Gracie. I want a turn with Gene Kelly and Donald O'Conner where I can dance on the walls with them. Those thoughts are heavenly for me.

I never saw a harp, a cloud labeled "9" and I didn't see anything like a horse with wings. I didn't see anyone walking to get around either. Where I was I didn't see any motorcycles, race cars or beer. I never saw a dragon fly over me. I didn't even see the band and choir I know have to be there, somewhere. I believe all that may be beyond the gate where I was stopped. I believe in the next life we will still have and be able to do the things we love in a different way than we do here.

To have all the time that you want to be with anyone and understand them perfectly and love totally with them - Wow. To me that is Heaven. To you it might be something else. I think what you need it to be will be given to you.

I believe that where we will be is going to be perfect for each of us. No conflict, no space or material limits, no water and air that can be ruined or used up. Enough for everyone to have what they love near them always. Enough time to do all the things you want to with anyone until you are completely sated with it and both go to do something else, no hurt feelings. I don't think there will be anything boring about it. I'm curious to see what is beyond the gate. I have to wait until he brings me.

I believe He will even help us learn to believe. He seeks to love with each one of us, like he showed his love to me. He is alive and loving each of us still today. All you have to do is ask and He will teach you of Him.

Just say, "Creator, I want to believe in you. Will you show me you live and love me so I can believe?" I feel if you say that out loud, even once, that you will start to notice things that are unusual beginning to happen around you. He will show you he loves you and hears your words.

I believe no one is going to be left unloved in eternity. I believe he will keep making connections until each one has come to love with Him. There will be no one left in any hell or any being forbidden eternity. He will bring each one home with his love for them. God may have given him what we might see as a bunch of ugly rocks but Jesus is making diamonds for His Father out of each of us. That is what I believe.

I believe we are to love here. I believe we are to care for each other under God's guidance. He takes care of us, we show those that don't believe that He is real to us by loving and helping them.

When we tell them why we can do it and give the credit where it belongs it is to His Glory, not ours. It is His blessing that we have enough to give them what they need. On my own I would be living in a box near a southern beach. I know who is taking care of me since the mate is gone. It wasn't me.

I have helped a lot of people in the days since I lost my mate. I will continue to try and fill the needs brought to me. But the Creator is the one who has provided the means for me to fill those needs seen by me. He knows my joy in helping those I meet here.

I believe every person's path leads back to the Creator. The Creator loves each of us. By loving Him, treating ourselves lovingly and giving our love to others, the world can be brought back to what it was in the beginning.

His kingdom on earth, rich with the Power of Love, come in each heart that believes. May His Kingdom come and His will be done, on our earth as it is in His domain now.

I believe that each thing you do to another you have done to Him. It would have been done to yourself but He took the punishment and death for each of us. You may as well kick Jesus as kick the dog. The energy and intent in the action is yours and will be brought back to Him. In His amazing love and grace He bore the punishment for us. If every time I screwed up someone I love had to hurt, how would I walk my days? I love Him for loving me and I try not to cause Him pain.

We have the power to choose. I try to choose peaceful actions, loving words, to share what I have gladly with others. I try not to curse anymore. I believe in the power of words now. It does all come back to you if you do not have Him to stand for you. I don't want Him to have to hurt for me anymore, but I am glad He loves me so much that He will if he must.

I was not punished or even shamed when I met that Divine Loving Being. By the book I am still a terrible sinner. I was not even made aware of the wrongs I had done. I was showed, in the light of His love, that He made them right again. He can change anything. He made it, it is His to define and His to change in any way He sees fit.

You are His precious gift from the Father and Mother. He will not let you live unloved unless it is what you choose. I can not tell you enough that I was not just forgiven but he didn't see my life the way I saw it down here at all. He made my whole life and my whole self back into the original love it was made to be.

I can't see that here but I know it is what I can see and live when I get there. It just keeps happening. I see something I say as wrong or bad and He has turned it to a blessing. I love the way He does that!

I believe that if you are loving yourself, you are showing your love of God. I believe if you love a cat that you are showing your love for God. I believe that if you love a tree he sees you loving Him. Love is all that He is and is in all that was made.

To love anything is to be acting divinely and to show love for Him. Love what you do and who you do it with and love Him and it is all the same. God is Love. I can't explain it any better. Love is God. When you love you are being like God made you to be.

I believe that you will all be with Him someday; Not one bit of life ever wasted. In all of the creation around us there is only life like us here. It is every bit precious and loved. Do not grieve them gone ahead. They are - every one of them - reclaimed. Call to those you love with your true heart and may you hear them say, "I'm still here"

When I pray I have been, in spirit, in the center of a circle of the ones I love. It is all those there that love me. We stand assembled before the Divine Loving Being I met. It is real to me, that place and those souls I love and that Being I met. It's rare to hear their voices but it has happened. I am grateful for their love and His.

I believe we keep the pain and hurt we give and get in life inside us, in our hearts and souls. I believe it hurts us and we become buried under it until our real self is rarely seen. I believe each perfect spirit we were born here with can be given to us again. We are freed from the pain and heart aches, He can change them for us.

He lifts the hurts and bad from us with His love. He can do it here if you let him. He will do it there when you arrive. He loves too big for us to understand. All is made right in Him for Him to bring back to his father.

I would not use the doilies I crochet to get my car out of a ditch. I would not use the box my father made to hold fertilizer. I like the things I make and put them where I think they belong to do what they were made for. If I can do this with things I make and love why would He not do the same?

I can't understand the point of a child dying of an illness or war. I can't understand Hitler and the ones that took out the towers - I can't see that big. I have to trust He knows what each of us needs most to bring all of us back to Him and create His perfect earth again. Perhaps that is what Heaven is, the perfect earth for us. I can't know.

I believe learning of God is a process that continues throughout a life. It is not a one time event. I do not believe that you are saved or baptized or touched by the spirit and then never need to think about God or His love again. I believe He loves being with you and will do what ever it takes to bring you to walk with Him every day, like a real friend.

I believe the hardest part of knowing God is learning to communicate with Him. To let Him have His say we have to learn not just to speak, but to listen. He can be hard to hear through the noise we all make inside our heads and hearts. You have to listen with the ears of your spirit. You have to learn to quiet yourself and listen for Him to speak.

When we talk to Him we have to give Him our truth, no matter how "ungodly" it seems to us, He knows it anyway. We only hide it from ourselves when we don't tell Him all we think and feel. He waits for us to give it, then He can heal it or change it.

If you don't see loving kindness from me in my life what do any of these words mean? While it's up to Him to show His love here, it's up to me to show mine. I do what I believe is right, in His will, and love the best I can. I trust His Grace to make it work the way He needs it to.

I have to believe my life is designed His loving best for me when I chose to walk with Him. Even when it looks like fertilizer to me, He showed me fertilizer makes roses grow.

He is the only one that always sees the truth. I can only see what I think I see and try to be as I am made. I try to be just me. That was enough for Him to love, I like to see it His way. I am the product of thousand of years of love. I am God's love manifested here. So are you.

I love, I care for others, I care for me. I love the Creator. He is too big for me to see and touch and hold from here. So I see and touch and hold those He loves that He brings to me. I feel that is how I love Him best, letting His love work through me.

I believe we are made from love and we are loved. How ever you believe is your decision. As long as you do no harm to another I have no problem with you living what you believe. Even if you believe nothing spiritual, it is your choice, not mine. I will not fight with anyone about it. I pretty much have gotten to where I won't even discuss it beyond saying I believe in the Creator.

I get tired and cranky and stupid and I do things wrong that I meant right or I do things out of anger sometimes still. I'm just a woman, not even a very good one. I wish I was a better friend to everyone I love. I still get ideas a day late and a dollar short. Some days I seem to be only filled with fertilizer, I think, but that is love, too, in His eyes.

I have learned to see things are not always what I think they are. What looks like a problem may be a blessing down the road. I see the love in so much more every day that I am sometimes overwhelmed by it. The love is there if you will let Him teach you how to see it His way. I pray it for each of you.

Call the Creator what you will or nothing at all - He loves me as I am. He loves you the way you are this minute. He lives. He loves us all and wants all of us with Him again, forever. That is what I believe.

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