The Letters
I put this site up in November of '07 from a need to share my experience with others. I wanted others to hear of the comfort I had now. I tried to find a way to let others let go of the fear of death that haunts us. I never expected the aftermath that has followed my sharing of this experience.
This little booklet did all that and had also touched hearts. The first letter I recieved brought tears to me as I read it.
"thank you so much for your story. It took me TWO days to read it. I kept on crying...As I was reading, one part really touched me so deeply that I began sobbing. I copied it for myself so I could read it again and again....
Understanding being "sought out to be loved" is something I have struggled with for the past 49 years. to know that God would feel that way makes me feel, at least to some degree, valuable...God has helped me all along, but the loneliness has been consuming at times.
I have a job, a WONDERFUL son, two perfect grandchildren whom I have a wonderful relationship with, extended family and friends, but sill feel unworthy of being loved; ... I'll be...on my next birthday, and I feel like it's the end of my life, like I can't go on feeling so lonely this way.
Today, I looked up local doctors to visit for therapy... I had such a need to vent, thanks for allowing me to....expel some of this pain. And thank you for your story."
The bolded line is what touched my heart. She was going to try and get help. And I know she has stayed for love of her family because we still email back and forth. I stay in contact with many of those who have written to me.
"Thank you so much for sharing your experience...I would describe myself as a very frustrated person. Someone who had a lot of hopes, ambitions, plans. I struggle with depression and I suppose I have for a long time, as a result of the disappointments I have met with... I have often thought of suicide, ..... No support and feeling like I am too old and without real potential have caused me to be very down.
I am so tired of being alone, with no real friends or colleagues, and it frightens me deeply that I might never have a truly loving relationship again at this point in my life. I used to feel so joyous at the prospects I believed to exist for me, all gone now....I don't know what words or thoughts you can offer beyond what you have already provided to everyone. But if you have any encouragement, any solace or strength you could extend, even a mere kindness, I would be grateful... "
How do you answer an email like that? They hurt so badly and I wanted so much to help. I wrote and tried to be encouraging. I hope their life is better today.
"I just wanted to spend a moment to thank you for sharing your story,.. And rather than to spend your time explaining just "why" I know your story to be true, let me simply say that I do know it. Not just believe it. Know it...With the greatest of gratitude..."
I knew that what they were saying was that we had a spiritual connection between us. It made my day when I needed a lift.
The notes and letters continue to come to me from this experience. Many have had their hearts comforted and their lives changed and taken time to tell me that, by sharing this experience, I have touched them.
I am awed by the power a few words written in the middle of nowhere by a nobody have had to touch lives and create positive changes. So, Please, reach out to encourage and cheer those you meet in your days. One kind word from you may change their life - and yours.
Thank you all for reading. Keep sharing the love, D. S. Weiler
